last night was one of the most ridiculous nights of my life. the neighbors were hosting a 21 run for a friend so kate and i decided to go. shay didnt even look at me the entire night but whatever im over it. it was really fun and i pretty much just hung out with christian josh and jordan the whole night. im really gunna miss them next year. im not sure where they are living but its gunna be so different not being able to just walk down the driveway to their house whenever. anyways the last thing i remember is taking two shots at 11 and then its all blank. i woke up in the morning with my pants and uggs DRENCHED laying on the floor, my camera screen cracked, an earring missing, and bruises all over my knees and arms. according to christian i either fell in a mud puddle or took a shower in my clothes, both of which he says are extremely possible judging from the shape i was in last night. wow.

i have absoutly no motivation at all when it comes to school. i have a test on friday which i havent even begun to think about. all i do when im home is lay in bed and watch weeds or greys anatomy on dvd. i still have three months left at school but i just want so badly to be done.the thing is if i dont get excellent grades this semester my dad is going to cancel my flight to philly. i should have never gotten a 4.0 last semester now they just expect it again.

anyways i realllyyy wanna go to coldplay on july 9th and am buying a freaking ticket right when they go on sale so i dont miss out like i did for lady gaga :(

no longer easy on the eyes

i'm loosing site of who i am and who i want to be. shay refuses to talk to me. i'm hoping that it will all blow over soon cuz even though he has his moments when i just want to slap him, he is a good friend. i have no idea where i will be living next year and we have exactly five days to figure it out. stacy is most likely going to be living with jason which i think will be better. i love her to death but she's just one of those people that i can't be around 24/7. things with will are going ok i guess. i still think he's hung up on his crazy ex girlfriend even though he says he isn't. it's just hard when she lives RIGHT across the street from him and i hear that she came over and they faught about god knows what. on the bright side of things my birthday is 16 days away and i've been watching weeds all day. best show ever.